Arghhhhhh

Today is WA's last day at our current daycare. As you all know, this is the daycare that unceremoniously kicked IA out at the end of Dec. Both kids are scheduled to start on Monday at a new daycare that comes highly recommended by our neighbors. My (AWESOME) mother-in-law has taken the brunt of this situation by watching IA for the past month. She's exhausted (IA tends to do that to ya), and there really are not enough thanks that can come out of my mouth. She's a sanity saver. We're all ready to move on.

The irony of the whole situation is that WA has been out sick for the past two days and when I brought him in, with last day party treats in hand, I learned that both the crappy director and the stupid teacher from IA's room left this week. WTF. They both sucked, so it's good for the facility, but that's just insane to learn after all that they put us through. The timing of it all, hurumph.

Feelin' alright

With several days under my belt, I'm feeling ok. At peace, happy with two, moving on. Ready to be the best Mom I can to my two lovies. Thanks for all the emails and calls. Exactly what I needed.

Here, then gone

Yesterday I became a member of a new club. Yesterday I had a miscarriage. This post is without question my most personal to date, but I feel no shame or hesitance in writting it. I sense that more couples go through this that we might imagine and I'm not sure why it's kept so closeted. Support comes in all forms and for me blogging helps me excise my emotions (for better or worse).

This pregnancy was a suprise. We had closed the books on more kids and when we found out it was a shock to the system. 3? Really? Lots of emotions followed those two little pink lines...fear, happiness, self doubt and holy shit! seemed to be the most prevalent. Once we settled in to the idea it still seemed daunting, but not nearly as scary as when we first found out. Then one day I statred to have some back pain and cramps. The clots came. My hubby took me to the ER and they confirmed what we already knew.

Now where are we left? Honestly, I don't know. But I do know that I will forever be able to empathize with women who have this experience. For me it was dissapointing, but not soul crushing. Others are not so lucky.

Huh?

Last night, at 10:30 ET, on our way home from the airport WA was fairly quiet. It had been a long trip back from visiting our besties in Seattle and we were both exhausted. As I'm driving down the highway dreaming of a good nights sleep, without getting kicked in the side, from out of nowhere WA asks " Mom, what color is spider poop?". Huh? Totally random!

P.S. I will be scouring the internet today in attempt to find the true answer.

You learn something new everyday

And today I learned that kids chewable vitamins taste like @ss right after you brush your teeth.

This morning Will and I hit the hot tub before heading to shower up and get dressed. While in the hot tub he created an entire story about how he was the king and I was the guard (how true is THAT!?!). We role played throughout getting ready up until the point I had to take a " special power pill" to help protect the king. That pill happened to be a chewable Flinstone vitamin and I had just scrubbed the pearlies....Bleck. I do not recommend this. If you ever find yourself in this unlikely scenario, fake it and toss Fred or Dino in the trash.

The thankless job

Motherhood can sometimes be a grind. Never more so than on a snowed in weekend. The kids are antsy and if they watch one more Diego, I'll get the worst parent on the block award. My hubby and kids shoveled the driveway (though their participation was limited and they ended up coming in for hot chocolate) and then he was off to his weekend hockey marathon (though not before words were exchanged about the need to cut back coaching responsibilities next year). So I'm here on my own with the kids. I ended up making them homemade chicken nuggets. They are delicious and not half bad on the nutrition front. My hubby snuck one on his way out the door and gave them a thumbs up. Unfortunately, he was the only one. The kids hated them. After Will FINALLY took a "no thank you bite" (our version of "just try it"), he opted out. Izzie enjoyed playing with them and used one as ketchup delivery mechanism. But that's as good as it got. I'm not a huge cook, so it was a bit of a blow to my Julia Childs mojo. Glad my hubby liked them or I might have hung up the mitts. I love being a Mom, but sometimes it's the most thankless thing about my day. And, for the most part, I'm cool with that.

Yoga

Tonight I went yoga with my friend KS. Wow. Not only did I realize how much balance I've lost over the past few years, but, man, I'm out of shape. As with NYE, it was great to do something that made me feel like myself. I hope to repeat often.

In with a bang

2011 started out pretty darn fun. I reached back in time to my old party days and got snockered at our neighbor's New Years Eve party. The company was great, the guacamole amazing and the drinks free flowing. I wore makeup for the first time in many months and treated my neighbors to a glimpse of me in something other than sweatpants. The best part of the whole night had to be the feeling of not being someone's mom. I felt like me. My mother in law was over watching the kids and I didn't worry about them once. I just had fun. And it was nice. Today I am paying for all that fun, but it was worth it.

Happy 2011 all! May the year bring you nothing but the best.